I'm sitting here, wondering if I should post what I'm currently feeling/going through or just ride it out. I'm a talker and, especially when things are rough, I need to talk. It's how I work things out.
It's bad.
Today was fucking awful and I have to process it a bit before I know what's right/wrong.
Let's just say my ex took a huge step backwards in progress today...one that has me scared, confused, angry and, well...devastatated. But really, really fucking angry mostly. I'm shocked by what's happened and I never thought he was capable of crossing lines that he crossed today. Blindsided by it. It came out of nowhere, like a sucker punch. It always did - but usually it was me left in his wake.
Let's just say that a parent should be there to protect their children...try and shelter them from stress, anguish and physical pain. Not subject them to it.
I took a good shot in the jaw today, protecting my kids.
From someone who should never EVER be a threat to them. But was.
I don't know that I'm ready to talk about it (or that it's appropriate). But I also feel that I need to.
I'll be back. What the fuck is with this life?
It's bad.
Today was fucking awful and I have to process it a bit before I know what's right/wrong.
Let's just say my ex took a huge step backwards in progress today...one that has me scared, confused, angry and, well...devastatated. But really, really fucking angry mostly. I'm shocked by what's happened and I never thought he was capable of crossing lines that he crossed today. Blindsided by it. It came out of nowhere, like a sucker punch. It always did - but usually it was me left in his wake.
Let's just say that a parent should be there to protect their children...try and shelter them from stress, anguish and physical pain. Not subject them to it.
I took a good shot in the jaw today, protecting my kids.
From someone who should never EVER be a threat to them. But was.
I don't know that I'm ready to talk about it (or that it's appropriate). But I also feel that I need to.
I'll be back. What the fuck is with this life?
posted by Deb at 5:45 PM
7 Comments:
Wow, doesn't sound very good. Hope things calm down and work out okay. Best wishes.
I hope everything calms down too Deb. Take care, you're in my thoughts!
Hope you're ok Deb!
It sounds awful. I really hope that things pass quickly.
anytime you need to talk, even though i seem like a stranger... i know how important it is to just talk and let it all out... i am a wicked listener.
I ditto what Barbara said. For serious. Remeber to breathe, Deb. Hugs.
Thanks, a whole lot.
I'm stronger with you guys in my corner.
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