Wednesday, January 31, 2007

I'm really bummed/deflated tonight. I'm too tired to even post about it but it fucking sucks. Nothing about Mom...so I'm keeping it in perspective. Other worries just aren't that important anymore but, unfortunately, there's stuff I have to deal with. And it's pulled me away from Mom today....on my first day off in awhile. I'm hiring a lawyer tomorrow and shit's gonna' hit the fan. Maybe my watching Erin Brockovich two nights in a row has some significance...it's something like that but on a much lesser scale.

I'll tell you tomorrow...I just don't have it in me tonight. I cried for twenty minutes and that makes me tired. Fuck with my kids and you fuck with me. Can you tell I'm mad? I'm done.

I think I'll just go visit y'all and pretend things are ok tonight. But they're not.

(and this just in...I'm a fucking soap opera and I'm sick of it. This isn't me...I'm not a whiner. Some things are just outta' my control. A good friend of mine always says "never let the bastards grind you down". So I won't.) ;)

13 Comments:

Anonymous kelly said...

whatever it is...good luck to you deb

11:05 PM  
Blogger Deb said...

i'm so sick of whining here. I better get a grip soon, huh? it'll be o.k....just a battle I have to fight and I don't have much left in me.

but, this too shall pass. better be fucking quick, that's all. ;)

promise - no drama tomorrow. All sunshine, happy faces and unicorns. Maybe even some candy floss, for good measure.

11:17 PM  
Blogger junky said...

I love happy faced unicorns, :)

5:44 AM  
Blogger whitenoise said...

...and candy floss, mmmm..

Hope today is better for you, Deb.

6:36 AM  
Blogger Barbara Bruederlin said...

No, not candy floss - make it chocolate, and you're on!

Hope things look up today.

8:58 AM  
Blogger Allison said...

Hope things turn over a new left today Deb.

11:22 AM  
Blogger Allison said...

*leaf
:)

11:23 AM  
Blogger Gledwood said...

A good friend of mine always says "never let the bastards grind you down". So I won't.) ;)

I use that expression a lot too.

Take care Deb. Everything will get sorted in time.

Oh and by the way, you might feel sick, but you're not whining, OKAY??

3:09 PM  
Blogger Gledwood said...

A good friend of mine always says "never let the bastards grind you down". So I won't.) ;)

I use that expression a lot too.

Take care Deb. Everything will get sorted in time.

Oh and by the way, you might feel sick, but you're not whining, OKAY??

3:10 PM  
Blogger Deb said...

you guys are all the bestest and i thank you all.

i'll update later but, quite honestly, i'm so sick of negativity that i don't want to delve in too deep. i'll do a quick post/update in awhile, but right now this gorgeous day is calling my name and i wanna get some fresh air before it gets dark. thanks again because you truly are lifesavers and if you weren't here i'd be on the ceiling right now.

3:58 PM  
Blogger Toccata said...

Hi, we had great weather here too. Just got back from spending 5 hours outside. It was heaven. I sure hope the fresh air helped clear away the cobwebs and brings back some of your feistiness. Take care and know we're rooting for you.

p.s. You certainly don't ever have to pretend happiness for us.

4:41 PM  
Anonymous gledwood said...

I know I tend to repeat myself a lot ... but now four paragraphs at a time ...!??! What's with THAT???

Toccata is right, you really do not need to "do" happiness, not here of all places.

You can always try a joke: What name do you give to a dinosaur wearing glasses?
Do-you-think-he-saw-us ...

Okay that's the best I can do at this 2am hour of the night ..!..

6:05 PM  
Blogger Alana said...

Hey Debz, I wish I knew what was going on there. Let us know when you can, email me whenever. *hugs*

7:33 PM  

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